I’m gonna try again. This is my second chance. Am I under pressure to perform? God says the pressure is His. So I wanna taste grace so real it is undeniable. I don’t know how it is going to be possible for me to relax, but as far as I can remember, that’s what I’ll do.
The devil says, if I take this attitude, maybe I’ll fail. One, he is a liar. Two, even if I do fail, I fall into His grace. Into His perfect will. SO WHAT IF I FAIL? Pastor says there are two different types of “bo chap”. I believe one is irresponsibility. The other is a state of fearlessness. A state where I can fear not the consequences, fear not the outcome. SO WHAT IF I FAIL? I still live on, I still go to heaven don’t I? I am still an eternal spirit being.
Success in the world is NOT equivalent to success in God’s kingdom. Am I perfect? No. Will I ever fall out of God’s will? Maybe. But will I ever fall out of His plan? Never.
Having written thus far, I don’t feel liberated by any means. The emotions are still there. The flesh. The soul. The body. I am still afraid to a measure. It does not mean I have been lying, it just means that these problems have been in me all this while. And God is going to deal with it.
I’m not going to allow any career, dream, relationship or girl be a substitute god. I described my dreams. But between them and God, surely I can only choose Him. No desire or dream should be greater than my desire for Him. I know I will probably slip away from all these that I have said, if and when worry and anxiety intrude. But the battle is won. Jesus suffered in the flesh, that I may be dead to sin, and live in the spirit. That is my inheritance.
In this world you will have tribulations, but take courage. I have overcome the world. John 16:33