Hold me Lord.

Andrew didnt do so well for his flight today. And the instructor had a talk with him. When he had returned, i had thought all was well. So i was really taken aback when he started out in tears. And no one seemed to notice, till i asked him if he needed to talk. In the end, my course ic had a talk with him. My course seems to be crumbling apart. So many on the verge of failing.

Later when i asked him, he said he was just overwhelmed. Part of him wanted to go back home. Part of him didnt. Said it was fun on e weekends here. But i think there's things not being said. hmm...

If he left, i really think i would consider opting out. Again my fellowship seems to be leaving me. I simply do not know how much i want this any longer. Is it possible to ever live in this job in peace and joy? I believe in complete faith in God yes. But i know i would only contradict myself cos i know it is a decision to believe.

Well just got to let the days ahead form and see what happens i guess. God it is surely in Your hands. Hold me Lord.

Grace

His grace is sufficient for all my needs. More and more i can sense God trying to show me that. He's giving me a deeper revelation and knowledge of what grace is, and how it will change me. Sometimes it's quite amazing the number of times i must be disappointing Him. Then He shows me how amazing His grace is amidst my disappointment.

I want to enjoy the fruits of my labour. And I see that I can only do that by labouring unto His rest. In Him and to Him are all things. He is the beginning and the end. He is the Creator. He is my maker. My refiner, comforter, builder. The foundation in my spirit. And He is going to mold me. Give me strength and courage. Bring out the gold, silver and precious stones through me.

I was n His thoughts when He created the world. When He died. And even now. His love supersedes and transcends everything that is made.

Lord You are at the end of my road. The Hope that burns within me, through Your Holy Spirit. My very present help in need. I want living faith Lord. I want to be a raging, spreading fire, not a flame. But I commit it into Your hands Lord. Wholly use me. Bring out in me what Jesus is all about.

royalty

I am a winner. In Christ. Behold, He has overcome the world.

Greater is He who lives in me than he who is in the world.

I am a prince of God. Of royal bloodline and lineage.

His peace is already in me. And i will praise the Lord forever and ever. Amen.

loved

it's amazing to be touched by love. It feels great! And i am so touched by the love of my family. And i pray He will continually touch me with greater and greater revelations of His love!

Thanks dad, for everything you've done, and said for me. For your sacrifices. For your love.
Thanks mum, for the concern and care. For missing me, missing my presence whether to visit, or to watch movies. For your love.
Thanks sis, for your encouragement. For jus being there as my sister. For the reminders and sacrifices in your own right. For your love.

Thank you Lord, God, Friend. For placing me where i am, in this wonderful family. For your eternal sacrifice. For Your love. For You.

First Solo

The last time i flew solo was over 3 years ago in a prop plane flying at half the speed. My heart was beating faster with each passing moment. In truth, i had not prepared for this at all. Strapping into my G suit and life preserver unit, i was thanking God that He had blessed me for this. I was trying everything to calm the nerves. Signin out the aircraft myself for the first time, i proceeded to walk out to the aircraft on my own for the very first time.

Sitting in the front, it seemed like a deafening silence lookin back at the rear view mirror and not seeing the instructor - prompting, scolding, teaching. I knew i was physically on my own. Taxying out, it was nerve wrecking. And i could not wait to get airborne. It was like i knew that when i got up into the air, i would calm down.

Applyin maximum thrust, my aircraft sped down the runway like it did many times before. Only this time i was solo. As the aircraft lept off the ground, it was like i totally lost all feelings and jus flew the aircraft. I think it was the best conditions i ever flown in, in terms of winds and temperature. One of the best circuits i flown too.

Before i knew it, i had touched down. Relieved, but knowing that bringing this aircraft to a stop was one of the crucial moments. It behaved amazingly well though. And i only realized that i was full of adrenalin when i cleared the runway and brought the aircraft to a stop. It was like i had not felt that much excitement in a long time. Taxying back and shutting down, it was an experience that would linger long in my memory...