Tuesday, February 21, 2006

Audience of One

I come on my knees
To lay down before you
Bringing all that I am
Longing only to know you
Seeking your face
And not only your hand
I find you embracing me
Just as I am

And I lift these songs
To you and you alone
As I sing to you
In my praises make your home

Chrous:
To my audience of one
You are Father, and you are Son
As your spirit flows free,
Let it find within me
A heart that beats to praise you.
And now just to know you more
Has become my great reward
To see your kingdom come
And your will be done
I only desire to be yours,
Lord

So what could I bring
To honor your majesty
What song could I sing
That would move the heart of royalty
And all that I have
Is the life that you’ve given me
So Lord let me live for you
My song with humility
And Lord as the love song
Of my life is played
I have one desire
To bring glory to your name

Chorus

And we lift these songs
To you and you alone
As we sing to you
In our praises make your home

Chorus

Worry not..

have been reading Kenneth Hagin's book recently. And been enjoying being able to read the book on my way to work as i have been night flying and only reaching work in the early afternoon..

amazing how when God wants to tell me somthing, He will jus fill my senses with what it is. And really it is only when i am looking, seeking or searching that i see and hear it. Like the stars that are always there even in the day sky, God is surely always there with me. He is eternal and His heart is for me. If God is for me, who can be against me? He loves me with the love He loves Jesus. And just as Jesus declared that His Father was with Him, my Abba Father is always with me.

I read in the book.. about Jacob, Joseph and Benjamin. Which was what i wrote in my prev blog.. And i also read verse after verse of not worrying for tomottow, which i have been seeing jus everywhere! In my conversations, in my other readings, even in my friends' msn messages.

So i lay down my life. That my life may be Christ living in me and no longer i who live. Lord, quicken my faith, shower me with your goodness, free my mind unto your truths and revelations, and open my mind with knowledge and understanding. Let Your glory, Your goodness come before me, and my paths be of righteousness, every step being in the kingdom of God, in the Holy of Holies.

Sunday, February 19, 2006

new shoes

today was my birthday. well i started it off not feeling that well. but the day turned out really fruitful...

my cg brought me shopping for a new pair of shoes. Cos apparently a lot of people hate my present pair.. haha.. said its too conservative.

i really had to open my mind to the cg's suggestions.. haha.. so unused to it. I never thought i would wear shoes like that but i trusted them when they said i would get used to it. And it made sense to me i needed to get out of this comfort zone.

in the end, with the help of a lady and a guy from new cre, it was narrowed down to a pair of brown or a pair of white shoes. White leather shoes! cant believe it i settled for that.. haha..

but really thankful to the cg for the gift. well, 5-6 guys cant be wrong right? haha.. i'll find out soon i guess..

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

Benjamin Generation

Indeed God turns around all things for our good. Was reading Ben Gen on my way to work yest. And it was giving me life. Giving me wisdom. Then and there.

I read about how Jacob thought that he was about to lose Benjamin. But Joseph was asking for Benjamin not to hurt him but to bless and love him. At that point of time, with what Jacob had lost with Rachel, how much he must have cried out to God to not let him lose Benjamin. To him, how much it must have hurt, how much it must have felt that he was losing everything.

But the grace of God is amazing. Joseph is a picture of Christ. He was betrayed, went to prison, the pits, and ascended the throne to be the Redeemer, the Savior of His family and people. And this Jesus Christ, bore my sins and my shame. He saw me as i am, saw me as who i will be, and took me, accepted me and loved me. He says i am His righteousness! He says i am blessed, favored and loved.

This Joseph called upon Benjamin. Like Jesus calls upon me, calls upon His Benjamin Generation. And i will have 5 times more! This year will be even better! The best year i will experience! A year of acceleration. I believe.

Lord forgive me. And quicken me. Let my faith be of You. Let my focus be on You. Let my mind be simple in the things of Christ, and become the mind of Christ. Thank you Jesus.

Saturday, February 11, 2006

The best decision..

Sometimes the best decision doesnt necessarily mean it's the easiest. Sometimes it can be the hardest and most painful. I think i found that out recently.

Still, i was believing the word of a prophet.. i was believing the sermon preached, and the counsel of godly friends. So i know, the Holy Spirit will come upon me and prosper me. And i will be established. And become another man.

Only God knows the purposes and ends of what we go through. But i believe it is good. And i will stand and see the salvation of my Lord.

Saturday, February 04, 2006

I am Loved by God

Recently i have been bothered by a particular area of my life, not knowing how to approach it, and what to do.. Then yesterday i picked up my mp3 player again and started listening to sermons regarding the issue once more. I had listened to it before but i felt maybe this time things i hear would mean differently. And it did.

It was as if the sermon was talking about my situation exactly. Like PP was using my scenario to teach about the subject. Needless to say it was speaking to me. I only listened halfway before i reached campus.

During campus, the message preached was to only believe. And that all things are made beautiful in their time. To see the things we want in our lives and believe. On my way home, on the bus alone, i picked up my player and continued listening. This time the sermon sounded even more like PP was talkin about me..

At that time, i received a message from my friend. She told me that believing we were loved by God was so important to our receiving. And that i was loved. i thanked her and said it was timely. She replied that it was sent to her friend not too long ago and indeed as per today's message, all things were made beautiful in its time.

Then this morning, gg to my daily devotional, this was the title of it.. "I'm Loved by God"

You are mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned...For I am the Lord, your God...you are precious and honoured in My sight, and...I love you" ( Isaiah 43:1-4 NIV).

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

Sacrificial Love

got my promotion today.. well now my golden bar is not too lonely on my shoulders.. haha..

well i was reading my daily devotional today and it was talkin about love.. reading my blog then, it reminded me of some truths i learned and wrote here in my blog on the 1 nov 2005... what a reminder.. Sacrificial love...

here's the devotional...

Sacrificial Love
Anyone who sacrifices...will get it all back a hundred times over.Matthew 19:29 TM

Sacrificial love is about work, not play; it's about becoming a servant, not a hero. Jesus said, "Whoever wants to be great must become a servant" ( Mark 10:43-45 TM). You can give without loving, but you can't love without giving. Real fulfilment can't be found in self-centredness. One Christian leader writes: "When I set about the task of loving, I usually end up giving instead of receiving. Love inevitably costs me three commodities that are most precious - my time, energy and money. I don't part with these easily...because I have them in limited quantities...It's time to strip away the false glamour that the world (and sometimes the church) puts on loving, and tell the truth: true love is sacrificial."
Colette Bocchino says, "When I get up each morning, I remind myself that today I may be called upon to give more love, more care and more patience than I get back. In times of sickness and hardship I'm required to do this for weeks or months on end. But then it's my turn and God gives it back, either through my family or someone else. Either way it always comes back in an amount equal to my need." Peter wondered if it was all worthwhile when he asked Jesus, "'We have left everything and followed You. What do we get out of it?' Jesus replied, 'Anyone who sacrifices...because of Me will get it all back a hundred times over'" ( Matthew 19:29 TM). Furthermore, "God...will not forget...the love you have shown" ( Hebrews 6:10 NIV). Sacrificial love may cost you, but gives back so much more.
Bible-in-a-year Reading:Romans 12-14, Luke 7:24-35,Psalm 107:33-43,Proverbs 3:27-28