A Revelation?

Been in Australia for a week now.. and i have been so busy with flying and preparation that it seems i have been here longer.. Got a test on monday.. thereafter i'm looking for a break from wed till next week cos the last time i looked, i wasnt planned to fly those days..

Sometimes i feel like i must be the number one worryer in the world. Even when i know i am worrying, i stop for a while sometimes but start again soon after.. I realise that everytime i worried, it was because i did not trust God with the situation. Yet at times, i jus find it so difficult these days.. seems like it was much easier when i was a young christian and was hungry for every Word, believed every Word..

Daddy God will you give me a revelation of You? A revelation of what it means to have You as my Heavenly Father. A revelation that You care so much about me in every area to not let me fear. I dont want to be worldy. I dont want to live like i dont have a good and loving God. Help me Jesus. Help me believe once again in my heart. It has to be in my heart.

Lord i thank you. I thank you because this is what i can only do. Because You have given the victory to me. Because You have blessed me superabundantly in every area of my life. I thank you for every minute that i live, every person i meet. I thank you because You will take every head knowledge that i have and drop it into my heart and restore everything that has been lost many times over. Thank you for loving me.

Dad, mum, thanks for the support you have both given me. Thanks for the concern as well. I love you both and i pray that life will be good for you in the times ahead.
Beloved i miss you much. Sometimes i wish i could jus spend everyday having fun with you and doing nothing else. I love you.