haiz.. fell sick on sunday and it followed thru til today, climaxing with a stomachache so bad i instinctively called out to Jesus. Decided not to go to work, but tmr will prove to be a really busy day. Still pondering how to get into the base from the entrance..
Jus so pissed at falling sick... really hate these lies of the devil. I AM HEALED! SICKNESS AND PAIN HAS PASSED AWAY! i AM THE LORD'S REDEEMED!
anyway, i'm gonna believe that i will wake up tmr morning feeling refreshed and good. And the first day in my new squadron will be a blessed one! The beginning of this new course signifies more hard work again. But i pray that my work will be commited to Him and His grace will abound in me. Hmmm... helicopters are flying past my home as i type this.. haha..
Monday, August 29, 2005
Friday, August 26, 2005
New Creation
Officially finished Ground School today... and it ended off with a course lunch and the presentation of the top in ground school. Well, i didnt get it, but i dont feel all that disappointed at all. I cant explain it but since my return to my church, it's like i have found it much easier to listen and believe the message preached. Where i have not been able to receive being in God's favour and righteousness in the past, it seems like now i can truly believe and flow with what i hear...
I feel that the reason is quite simple. Whereas i had a shallow revelation of grace in the past, God has revealed to me to some length what grace is. And no matter how shallow my understanding still is, i know that He has dropped it a bit more into my heart. And that's what really matters to me. I rejoice when problems and worries do come my way and i find it so much easier to say, "Lord, you take care of it. I can't, You can."
Right now i jus want deeper and deeper revelations that God loves me. His love is there. I just need my lightning fast mind to come into line with that thru realisation. I believe His love will cast out my fears, and make me a better man - as a son, friend, boyfriend, husband and father. I don wanna fear failing, don wanna fear the future. I gotta embrace it with grace and the knowledge that He is with and for me. His favour surrounds me. The old things have passed away, and i am made new. I am a new creation!
I feel that the reason is quite simple. Whereas i had a shallow revelation of grace in the past, God has revealed to me to some length what grace is. And no matter how shallow my understanding still is, i know that He has dropped it a bit more into my heart. And that's what really matters to me. I rejoice when problems and worries do come my way and i find it so much easier to say, "Lord, you take care of it. I can't, You can."
Right now i jus want deeper and deeper revelations that God loves me. His love is there. I just need my lightning fast mind to come into line with that thru realisation. I believe His love will cast out my fears, and make me a better man - as a son, friend, boyfriend, husband and father. I don wanna fear failing, don wanna fear the future. I gotta embrace it with grace and the knowledge that He is with and for me. His favour surrounds me. The old things have passed away, and i am made new. I am a new creation!
Wednesday, August 24, 2005
rest
got my internet connection today! and it's fast! compared to the 5 pple sharing 28.8kb i had in australia, 2000kbp is fast! finally i get my own access to the internet...
been in ground school lately... studying everything to do with flying helicopters. The more i learn about it, the more i am amazed that thing can actually fly. Recently had a visit to Sembawang AB too... spoke a little to our seniors and course commander there. At least we got a glimpse of the place and stuff...
been thinking a lot about my future recently. Stuff like how i would do in the coming course, what comes after that - how much overseas time i will get - and also stuff about settling down... Been attracted to this girl recently (take a bit of boldness to type this down). She first caught my eye a long time back. And when i return it seems the same... Jus cant seem to get near her though.. too shy... bleh. But i have also been reminded consistently to rest in His finished work. Though getting to know her seems gd to God, i feel like He wants me to stay off one for a while. Dunno how long, but i know that He is preparing me. Speaking to me a lot about this subject.
Anyway jus gotta rest. ok gotta study liao...
been in ground school lately... studying everything to do with flying helicopters. The more i learn about it, the more i am amazed that thing can actually fly. Recently had a visit to Sembawang AB too... spoke a little to our seniors and course commander there. At least we got a glimpse of the place and stuff...
been thinking a lot about my future recently. Stuff like how i would do in the coming course, what comes after that - how much overseas time i will get - and also stuff about settling down... Been attracted to this girl recently (take a bit of boldness to type this down). She first caught my eye a long time back. And when i return it seems the same... Jus cant seem to get near her though.. too shy... bleh. But i have also been reminded consistently to rest in His finished work. Though getting to know her seems gd to God, i feel like He wants me to stay off one for a while. Dunno how long, but i know that He is preparing me. Speaking to me a lot about this subject.
Anyway jus gotta rest. ok gotta study liao...
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