Audience of One

I come on my knees
To lay down before you
Bringing all that I am
Longing only to know you
Seeking your face
And not only your hand
I find you embracing me
Just as I am

And I lift these songs
To you and you alone
As I sing to you
In my praises make your home

Chrous:
To my audience of one
You are Father, and you are Son
As your spirit flows free,
Let it find within me
A heart that beats to praise you.
And now just to know you more
Has become my great reward
To see your kingdom come
And your will be done
I only desire to be yours,
Lord

So what could I bring
To honor your majesty
What song could I sing
That would move the heart of royalty
And all that I have
Is the life that you’ve given me
So Lord let me live for you
My song with humility
And Lord as the love song
Of my life is played
I have one desire
To bring glory to your name

Chorus

And we lift these songs
To you and you alone
As we sing to you
In our praises make your home

Chorus

Worry not..

have been reading Kenneth Hagin's book recently. And been enjoying being able to read the book on my way to work as i have been night flying and only reaching work in the early afternoon..

amazing how when God wants to tell me somthing, He will jus fill my senses with what it is. And really it is only when i am looking, seeking or searching that i see and hear it. Like the stars that are always there even in the day sky, God is surely always there with me. He is eternal and His heart is for me. If God is for me, who can be against me? He loves me with the love He loves Jesus. And just as Jesus declared that His Father was with Him, my Abba Father is always with me.

I read in the book.. about Jacob, Joseph and Benjamin. Which was what i wrote in my prev blog.. And i also read verse after verse of not worrying for tomottow, which i have been seeing jus everywhere! In my conversations, in my other readings, even in my friends' msn messages.

So i lay down my life. That my life may be Christ living in me and no longer i who live. Lord, quicken my faith, shower me with your goodness, free my mind unto your truths and revelations, and open my mind with knowledge and understanding. Let Your glory, Your goodness come before me, and my paths be of righteousness, every step being in the kingdom of God, in the Holy of Holies.

new shoes

today was my birthday. well i started it off not feeling that well. but the day turned out really fruitful...

my cg brought me shopping for a new pair of shoes. Cos apparently a lot of people hate my present pair.. haha.. said its too conservative.

i really had to open my mind to the cg's suggestions.. haha.. so unused to it. I never thought i would wear shoes like that but i trusted them when they said i would get used to it. And it made sense to me i needed to get out of this comfort zone.

in the end, with the help of a lady and a guy from new cre, it was narrowed down to a pair of brown or a pair of white shoes. White leather shoes! cant believe it i settled for that.. haha..

but really thankful to the cg for the gift. well, 5-6 guys cant be wrong right? haha.. i'll find out soon i guess..

Benjamin Generation

Indeed God turns around all things for our good. Was reading Ben Gen on my way to work yest. And it was giving me life. Giving me wisdom. Then and there.

I read about how Jacob thought that he was about to lose Benjamin. But Joseph was asking for Benjamin not to hurt him but to bless and love him. At that point of time, with what Jacob had lost with Rachel, how much he must have cried out to God to not let him lose Benjamin. To him, how much it must have hurt, how much it must have felt that he was losing everything.

But the grace of God is amazing. Joseph is a picture of Christ. He was betrayed, went to prison, the pits, and ascended the throne to be the Redeemer, the Savior of His family and people. And this Jesus Christ, bore my sins and my shame. He saw me as i am, saw me as who i will be, and took me, accepted me and loved me. He says i am His righteousness! He says i am blessed, favored and loved.

This Joseph called upon Benjamin. Like Jesus calls upon me, calls upon His Benjamin Generation. And i will have 5 times more! This year will be even better! The best year i will experience! A year of acceleration. I believe.

Lord forgive me. And quicken me. Let my faith be of You. Let my focus be on You. Let my mind be simple in the things of Christ, and become the mind of Christ. Thank you Jesus.

The best decision..

Sometimes the best decision doesnt necessarily mean it's the easiest. Sometimes it can be the hardest and most painful. I think i found that out recently.

Still, i was believing the word of a prophet.. i was believing the sermon preached, and the counsel of godly friends. So i know, the Holy Spirit will come upon me and prosper me. And i will be established. And become another man.

Only God knows the purposes and ends of what we go through. But i believe it is good. And i will stand and see the salvation of my Lord.

I am Loved by God

Recently i have been bothered by a particular area of my life, not knowing how to approach it, and what to do.. Then yesterday i picked up my mp3 player again and started listening to sermons regarding the issue once more. I had listened to it before but i felt maybe this time things i hear would mean differently. And it did.

It was as if the sermon was talking about my situation exactly. Like PP was using my scenario to teach about the subject. Needless to say it was speaking to me. I only listened halfway before i reached campus.

During campus, the message preached was to only believe. And that all things are made beautiful in their time. To see the things we want in our lives and believe. On my way home, on the bus alone, i picked up my player and continued listening. This time the sermon sounded even more like PP was talkin about me..

At that time, i received a message from my friend. She told me that believing we were loved by God was so important to our receiving. And that i was loved. i thanked her and said it was timely. She replied that it was sent to her friend not too long ago and indeed as per today's message, all things were made beautiful in its time.

Then this morning, gg to my daily devotional, this was the title of it.. "I'm Loved by God"

You are mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned...For I am the Lord, your God...you are precious and honoured in My sight, and...I love you" ( Isaiah 43:1-4 NIV).

Sacrificial Love

got my promotion today.. well now my golden bar is not too lonely on my shoulders.. haha..

well i was reading my daily devotional today and it was talkin about love.. reading my blog then, it reminded me of some truths i learned and wrote here in my blog on the 1 nov 2005... what a reminder.. Sacrificial love...

here's the devotional...

Sacrificial Love
Anyone who sacrifices...will get it all back a hundred times over.Matthew 19:29 TM

Sacrificial love is about work, not play; it's about becoming a servant, not a hero. Jesus said, "Whoever wants to be great must become a servant" ( Mark 10:43-45 TM). You can give without loving, but you can't love without giving. Real fulfilment can't be found in self-centredness. One Christian leader writes: "When I set about the task of loving, I usually end up giving instead of receiving. Love inevitably costs me three commodities that are most precious - my time, energy and money. I don't part with these easily...because I have them in limited quantities...It's time to strip away the false glamour that the world (and sometimes the church) puts on loving, and tell the truth: true love is sacrificial."
Colette Bocchino says, "When I get up each morning, I remind myself that today I may be called upon to give more love, more care and more patience than I get back. In times of sickness and hardship I'm required to do this for weeks or months on end. But then it's my turn and God gives it back, either through my family or someone else. Either way it always comes back in an amount equal to my need." Peter wondered if it was all worthwhile when he asked Jesus, "'We have left everything and followed You. What do we get out of it?' Jesus replied, 'Anyone who sacrifices...because of Me will get it all back a hundred times over'" ( Matthew 19:29 TM). Furthermore, "God...will not forget...the love you have shown" ( Hebrews 6:10 NIV). Sacrificial love may cost you, but gives back so much more.
Bible-in-a-year Reading:Romans 12-14, Luke 7:24-35,Psalm 107:33-43,Proverbs 3:27-28

dropping it.

when you're thankful, you're grateful, and living in grace. Grace is unearned, undeserved, unmerited favor. So i wanna live in grace.

The more important something is, the more important it is to commit it unto God, and not pick it up ourselves. Which is so easy. Still, i believe He can change us and mold us, prospering our mistakes along the way.

Thank you Jesus.

Secret Place

went for the leaders' meeting today. I believe that God is awakenng my dreams and desires once more.. the ones that are truly in my heart, that truly give me joy and peace. What an amazing preaching on digging deep from the well, pressing in.. and the secret place... from the secret place stems forth every external, supernatural blessing.

Today He also showed me His love for me. He gave Kelvin remembrance of me at the same time i was going thru somethin.. I initially didnt see it that way, but He convinced me with another act of love later..

God you know i want only the things You want for me. Guide me in wisdom and truth, Lord. Thank You for resurrecting certain desires in my heart. Now i jus have to wait on You.

Evidence of God

One said you have to save yourself. Another said He will save you.
One said to attain knowledge. Another said to ask of Him and He will give.
One said do good to go to heaven. Another said He has given done everything for you.
One died for himself. Another died for the sinners.
One attained his anointing under a tree. Another died on His tree to give His anointing to the world.

The world is full of evidences of Jesus Christ, if the world would only open its eyes. Even Chinese practices are seen to originate from Scripture.. written 4000 years ago. The three joss sticks - a picture of the Holy Trinity. The single joss stick - a picture of one God. The manner of moving them - stated as the heave and wave offering in the Bible.
Everything is red. Why? Cos it originated to tell the story of the coming of the shedding of His blood. The couplets on the lamp posts from the application of blood on the door post to save Israel from the plague.
Even Chinese characters show their origin from God.

Thank you Lord for your mercy to me. For being kind to me. Your grace is more than sufficient for all my needs. And i hold on to Your promise.

i believe

I do not know many things, and how You mean for things to be. Sometimes things jus don seem like they are going well. But i do know that You are good and Your mercies, grace and favor towards me are abounding. Whatever happens, i believe..

favour..

really have been so favoured by God recently.. i havent flown in a week, but still graded pretty well on my flight on thurs.. plus, i did rather well in my system brief after that.. which really was only so cos God had turned around the bad things i had experienced in the past for good. Time and chance truly happens to all men. If i had known very little, but the instructors only quized me the stuff i knew, i would be seen as good. And if i had known almost everythin, but the instructor asked only the things i didnt know, i would be seen as bad wouldnt i..

2006 is meant to be a year of following the leading of the Holy Spirit, according to PP. I really believe and wanna flow with this. Already i am experiencing more of this end 2005..

Thank you Lord for the experiences You are giving me right now. And the peace and joy i am enjoying..

Christmas

Christmas was great. The service was superb and reminded me of the reason we live, the reason He died. I was also granted the privilege of seeing Kelvin's new friend got saved. All i did was arrange to sit with him, but God gave me so much joy for that.. Jian Lin is someone who has quite a lot of favour i think, and is seemingly teachable and intelligent. I think he will be quite an interesting friend..

Ehm, went home after that, even took a nap. Thank God for a friend and brother like Joseph. After that we went for dinner with very special company... and i had a great time. Jus enjoyed the company i guess, although we didnt really do anything but eat, drink and talk. Thank you Lord for the experiences You bring me through.

Merry Christmas to everyone, dad, mum and sis especially...

closer to God.

These days, i feel closer to God than in the past.. It's like.. whatever i am gg thru, it's more natural for me to talk to Him now.. Indeed we do not know how to go in and come out.. but jus know that He is good and faithful.

Trust in the Lord with all my heart, and lean not in my understanding. In everything, acknowledge Him, and He will make my paths straight...

2006..

2006 is coming. And it will be a year of even more. Better, stronger. It will be a year that we can follow His leading in us even more than before. And we will have even more favor.. in front, behind, all around us. The anointing on us will be stronger. And His glory is us will be even greater. Blessings will abound. And it will all be 5 times. We are the Benjamin generation. 5 times more! Favor, blessings, leading, strength, anointing, glory!

relax and enjoy

today was some day.. considering the quality of rest i had the previous night, i had started off the day thinkin it could end up as one stinking day. I wasnt in very good shape mentally and i still had two flights ahead of me. It was the first time i am flying twice in a heli..

Looking back, i think the turning point was when i declared that the day was going to be good and the flights would be good in Jesus name. I went on to enjoy two really good flights and i felt my instructors were quite impressed..

I feel God has along the way dropped some gift in me.. i dont know exactly when, but my flying had a marked improvement at some point in the last few weeks. And the instructors concured.. maybe it was confidence, maybe a new mentality that has broken me free from certain bondages, whatver it was, i thank God He is always with me. I believe He wants me to find purpose in my career again and enjoy it..

Somewhere along the way i find myself thinkin in a new way i have never b4.. that when somethin happens against my ideal desires, i do somethin about it instead of sitting there and reacting to the problem.. I feel that's helped my flying a whole lot cos i react less to when the aircraft's not behaving as i want it to..

Thank you Jesus. Everyday you remind me that you love me. That you are with me. All things good will happen in Your time and space. If it's not from you, i dont want it. But if it is, You have to be the one to put me in the right places and times. I just want to relax and enjoy!

Devotional 26 nov

"In Case I Ever Forget!"

Give thanks in all circumstances.1 Thessalonians 5:18 NIV

The following story has been reprinted by request; it needs no commentary: "They huddled inside the storm door - two children in ragged over-sized coats. 'Any old papers, lady?' I was busy. I wanted to say no - until I saw their feet. Little sandals sopped with sleet. 'Come in and I'll make you some hot cocoa.' There was no conversation. Their soggy sandals left marks on the hearthstone. I served them cocoa with toast and jam to fortify them against the chill outside. Then I went back to the kitchen to work on my household budget. The silence in the front room struck through me. I looked in. The little girl held the empty cup in her hands looking at it. The boy asked, 'Lady, are you rich?' I looked at my shabby slipcovers. 'Am I rich? Mercy, no!' The girl put the cup in its saucer! - carefully. 'Your cups match your saucers.' Her voice was old, with a hunger not of the stomach. Then they left, holding their bundles of paper against the wind. They hadn't said thank you. They didn't need to - they had done more than that. Much more. Plain blue pottery cups and saucers, but they matched. Potatoes and brown gravy; a roof over our heads; my man with a good steady job - these things matched, too. I moved the chairs back from the fire and tidied the living room. The muddy prints of small sandals were still wet upon my hearth. I let them be. I want them there in case I ever forget how rich I am!"

Bible-in-a-year Reading:Joshua 4-6, Mark 9:1-13,Psalm 114, Proverbs 27:20-22

Sensitivity?

Jesus i pray you prosper my mistakes.

Had a wierd dream last night.. i was training or somethin, and war suddenly set upon the country. I then found myself flying in aircrafts and even on occasions shooting enemies down. The wierd thing? All those aircraft platforms are not going to be my future platforms at all. Plus, for various reasons, 3 times i went up, 3 times my aircraft crashed. I survived all three but i really wonder if this dream has any significance.. esp since i am in my line of career..

Today's devotional by Kenneth Copeland surprised me somewhat.. It taught to regain my sensitivity. Cos i have always been told and have the impression that i am a sensitive person, or even a snag. And i had for some reasons gained the impression that it wasn't entirely a good thing. But i guess the scriptures shown in the devotional has really changed my perspective again..

Daily Devotional 22 nov

Working In A Difficult Environment (4)
God...put him in the garden...to tend and keep it.Genesis 2:15 AMP

While David was out in the pasture tending sheep, everyone's eyes were on Saul. But not God's: His eyes were on David watching how he worshipped, how his character was coming along, his relationship with and fear of God, and how he confronted evil. Would he be easily intimidated, or did he have the stuff kings were made of? How would he fare in battle? Would he see a giant, or a giant God standing behind him? Was he proud and self-sufficient, running ahead of God, or did he rely solely on God? Would he be fair with people? How would he handle authority? Would he speak evil of those placed over him? Or would he respect those in authority, regardless of their personal shortcomings?
David wasn't fully aware of what God had planned for him, but he acknowledged God in all his ways. Someone once said, "Character is what you are when nobody is watching." Well, God is always watching! He was watching David - and He's watching you!
Most of us do not work as though God is watching, or even cares about the job we're doing. We fail to realise that promotion doesn't come "from the east or the west... but [from] God" ( Psalm 75:6-7 NIV). Do you understand that as difficult as your current job may be, God has placed you there for a purpose? He has deposited you there so that you can learn how to deal with the enemy, grow in grace and maturity, and be trained for better things. Think about it!
Bible-in-a-year Reading:2 Chronicles 32-34, Mark 6:45-56,Psalm 76, Proverbs 27:4-6

Stress..

i was quite stressed at work today.. perhaps cos i was worrying too much.. perhaps cos i had not flown for 10 days and knew i had done little in the way of preparation. Regardless, i only knew that i was stressed, and i was desperate for it to go away. I began to think to myself what Pastor ever thought about stressed. What ways were there to get rid of it? What consciousness did i have to awake to? Then i realised that what i needed to do was simply ask God. i beseeched God to take it away from me. And in my spirit He reminded me that He was always with me.

I then opened my bible and flipped not knowing where to flip to. Somehow 2 Cor caught my eye. and the following goes:

2Co 12:8 For this thing I besought the Lord three times, that it might depart from me.
2Co 12:9 And He said to me, My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore I will rather glory in my weaknesses, that the power of Christ may overshadow me.

God is so good. And He loves me so. I susequently went for the flight.. but the instructor had already decided to use the sortie as a free ungraded refresher for me due to the bad weather.. It was indeed better than anything i could ask or think of.. for i had indeed asked my brother to agree with me in prayer that i would have a good flight or wouldnt fly due to bad weather.. haha.. Thank You Jesus.