laugh at me!

pitch.. pitch.. pitch.. roll.. let the nose come down, pick a reference point on the ground, check it there! roll, check! watch the speed, wings level ball centre... 245 knots, pull now! Pull 4Gs in 2 secs...

Sorry if i describe it a little like a Tom Clancy war novel... i have jus finished reading one.. haha... Those were the words of an instructor taking me through my first aerobatics sequence... It's a new phase i jus got into... It's exciting, but towards the end of both aero flights i have had, i have not felt too good physically, requiring the instructor to fly us back. I hope i'll get use to it soon enough...

It's amazing how God speaks to me. To remind me of His love, His presence, and that no matter what happens, with Him things will always turn out fine... And He speaks, telling me to focus on His love for me. Not my sins, not my inadequacy, and not my circumstances. My heart races everytime i hear Him on the inside.

Well here's another interesting experience i have had. I dont know how else to describe it but interesting. haha... i had gone to church last sunday, when a man approached me. I was waiting for my friends. Well he got down to talking to me and told me about how God came into His life when his life was in shambles, how he had come to an end of himself and now totally depended on God's love for him. It was pleasing to hear a testimony. He also said he had cancer of the throat. And i just felt moved enough to open my Bible to show him this verse... Surely He has borne our griefs and carried our sorrows; Yet we esteem Him stricken, smitten by God and afflicted. But He was wounded for our transgressions, He was bruised for our iniquities; The chastisement for our peace was upon Him, and by His stripes we are healed.
He immediately teared after that. Soon though, he started to talk non-stop, and i couldnt listen fully to the service at all. Intermittenly, he was disturbing me actually, seeming more interested to talk then to listen to he service. He was after all, going to attend the next service. On hindsight, it did not settle well within me, and i was still trying to be patient and polite!

Well, jus yesterday night, he sent me a sms asking how i was, how was my night and if i had a partner. My lightning fast mind refused to contemplate that possibility. His next sms though confirmed he was actually gay! Yikes! Calming myself down, i reminded myself that God still loves him. So i replied that i wasnt interested, and that God had made us man and woman specifically. And that i hoped that by His grace he would change.

Well he started challenging me to quote any part of the Bible that said being gay was wrong. i jumped straight to Genesis about Lot. And realising that my inadequate knowledge drew up a blank on any other scripture, i sent out a distress sms to my dad, Jayden and Josiah (Kelvin). God had actually laid it down as law that itwas wrong in Leviticus! Had to be careful about introducing law to him but i specifically told him that it's proof that it was not God's desire, and that was why Jesus died for us.

He started being defensive and claimed that i was implying he could not believe in God if he was gay. that i said that God didnt love him. He also said that he was made that way, and didnt fault me for liking girls! I quickly replied that i had not said so, but that God did love him, and he could believe in Him. On my dad's instructions i ended the sms with have a pleasant night with the intention to cutting short this sms conversation. He had to have the last say, and said that he would pray for me, and punctuated with the known fact that he knew God loved him though he was gay.

Haiz. I hope he lets the truth into his heart one day. But it's God's job anyway. Well Lord, you know, it really wouldnt hurt to be attractive and have many girls ask me for my number and how my night was... Haha... Go ahead, laugh at me!